Life of guohui ...chp 340

it's like the moment of drowning in the middle of nowhere.negativity in positivity.

5 weeks more to ORD-ing. not that i am looking very forward, but i thought i welcomed the end of it. though i really enjoyed what i am doing. it's just not my calling i guess. and suddenly, everything seems shrouded. the best part abt planning for my future? it's everything not i planned for.

i wanna break the bubble. i wanna break my conventional bubble. i need someone to trust. a dozen of needs and wants. not none satisfiable.

nope, i'm nt being emo. either am i lark-happy. i'm just being practical. practicality in my own definition. ponder before venturing. that life starts in 5 weeks time. a 22 yr old man cannot afford to step onto the wrong pebble and lands himself drowning in the pond again.

guohuilist turned back time on Wednesday, September 30, 2009.

Life of guohui ...chp 339

i swear blogger turns insane on my com.

nt that i am sane these days anyway. life's pretty hectic on the work and fun side. 1 week to D1 ord. 9 weeks to go for sc/sgt d44. team chinese chalet function was a blast. down 10bottles of chang and carlsberg before the bbq starts and i was damn high during the bbq itself. cordon bleu, chivas and beer. did i forgot to mention the secret revendous to finish off 2kg of live prawn with victor and jack?

and the 18hrs before i was attending this case of man's hand injury onboard a vlcc on a choppy night. note the movie the perfect storm. it was close. sea state 3 and no less. and 3of the man's finger was dangling from his hand in a room filled with blood. but tt wasn't the pt. pt is. i realised that the S$150 risk allowance is not easy to earn. my conscript life is cheap. haha.

old man use old boat. young man follows old man use old boat too. it sucks. MDB is offically on my hatelist. JB makan was good.

and after re reading the book, i think that henry is a selfish fellow. and i wish for my own clare.

absure sentencing. my brain has degenerated. it's time for a rest.

a rest too long.

guohuilist turned back time on Tuesday, September 01, 2009.