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just came back from teck leong's wedding dinner at york's hotel. while this entry is very extreme in contrast with respect to my previous post, nevertheless, its something joyful and i thought i might want to post it up.


so it's teck leong finally getting married. and a splendid time for the chung cheng alumni to meet up. was sitted with jon, harry, hong kai, jasmine, jiamin and donglin instead of the older generations at a table.


and wad a great time it was to really catch up and update each other on our life. this is especially so for the four of us. afterall, the four of us have served the unit for the past 2 yrs together and are considered an era/generation of our own. and congratulations to OCT Tay Jingyang Jon.




guohui, jon, harry and hongkai.


and it's a good time to know our new CIs better. though we really need to apologise for really leaving them out of our talks from the memory lane.



jiamin, jasmine and guohui.


the family portray of the cchsm npcc instructor alumni excluding lam and marc chua. and guan yong who is currently overseas for his pilot course.




and of course, the leading man tonight, teck leong and his wife.

guohuilist turned back time on Sunday, March 25, 2007.

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divided they were,
yet united they stand
for the remembrance of a lost loved one
an ugly scene scene erupted
but ended with a truce in tears

which i thought and hope i never will with my loving brothers at the moment.

while for now, i hold my family dear to me.
and same goes for my recognised relatives
people who watched me grow and doted and care for me

for fate brought us together this lifetime.

i seek blessings from her above
to keep us united.
and all the more for good health and harmony

a bold request i must admit.
but i do hope it will come true
and stay the same for many yrs to come.

we'll miss her for a long time to come.
and pray that she rest well for eternity.
a simple wish regardless of who we are
i hope i wish i want

and for now,
let's all move on with our lifes well and good
for we all know reality it now is.
for i believe this is what she would love to see.

and i shall.

and we shall....

guohuilist turned back time on Monday, March 19, 2007.

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it's the sense of satisfaction i received after you completed something that makes it all worthwhile.

it's the rest u get after a long day's work to make me appreciate my precious slptime

it's the occasion trip to get in touch with the unit to make me realise why i am still feeling so attached to it.

it's the interaction with my ncos that makes me realised hw much i've matured and despite being 16, how cute they all can be.

it's the surprising glimpse of my ex cadets that makes me feel old

it's the remembrance of me by my ex cadet tt makes me feel so appreciated.

it's the occasional trip back to the unit and doing evaluation with him that makes me appreciate our past working experiences more. and how long a way we all have gone by.

certain things in life seems great when you take a back seat and appreciate the many little things. i'm so fortunate to acknowledge and bask in them while it last.

and 300 didn't disappoint me with it's visual graphics and portray of the preservation of pride and honour. of comrades in arm and of the medival weaponry. of tactical possibilities and fascinating greek stories.

and i like the ending whr leonides missed his spear throw at king xeres at the ending. somehow, what got to me was the msg that even though the 300 spartans eventually fell to the great persian army, they eventually managed to scratch the almightly King. thru inflicting the blood and pain on the king which represent the slaughting of his army. king xeres is but invincible. and the miss to kill xeres signifies that they did not managed to defeat the great persian army.

and in some scenes, the blood somewhat spills like paint of a canvas. gruesome yet in a way artistic.

cheers to 300. =)

guohuilist turned back time on Saturday, March 17, 2007.

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just a quick post while waiting for my hair to dry.

basically, it's just working day in day out. and changi general hospital is really becoming my 2nd home. i'm like getting to know every nook and corner of that place. and of course, the friendly and responsible security guard. but food wise, it's 板面 and mee pok and tt malay stall and occasionally mixed rich veggie with limited selections for the night. and nt forgetting the many many cups of coffee and night hrs i spent there for the past 10 days or so.

but the project at CGH is ending soon. can u imagine it?

136 sets of PCs,
a few thousand gigs of data transferred,
a few hundred KMs travelled within CGH,
a few hundred hours of brain cracking situations,
a few hundred thousands of digits mentioned,
a few hundred times of logging in as cghadmin,

and on and so forth.

in 10 days.

soon, we'll be moving on to some other place.

ok. tt's purely random. as usual.

but i gonna admit i missed np life. but i guess my end station is near. and i'm due for retirement soon. my days have gone by. as i've mentioned to jon. so coming june, it'll really be pop for me after 7.5yrs in cchsm npcc. but tt's another post for another day.

though i really enjoyed working for nw. learning so many new things everyday.

ok. i guess when phase 1 ends, which is very soon, gonna catch up with all the grps of friends i have. and yes, 24/3 is teck leong's wedding, a good time to meet all the cchsm npcc oldies instructors.

and i'm gonna leave u guys with a interesting mail i received. quite thought-provoking. thought somewhat i realised tt i'm too old for lovey-dovey at this age. or perhaps at this moment.

佛与石头的对话

（一）

石头问：我究竟该找个我爱的人做我的妻子呢？还是该找个爱我的人做我的妻子呢？

佛笑了笑：这个问题的答案其实就在你自己的心底。这些年来，能让你爱得死去活来，能让你感觉得到生活充实，能让你挺起胸不断往前走，是你爱的人呢？还是爱你的人呢？

石头也笑了：可是朋友们都劝我找个爱我的女孩做我的妻子？

佛说：真要是那样的话，你的一生就将从此注定碌碌无为！你是习惯在追逐爱情的过程中不断去完善自己的。你不再去追逐一个自己爱的人，你自我完善的脚步也就停滞下来了。

石头抢过了佛的话：那我要是追到了我爱的人呢？会不会就...

佛说：因为她是你最爱的人，让她活得幸福和快乐被你视作是一生中最大的幸福，所以，你还会为了她生活得更加幸福和快乐而不断努力。幸福和快乐是没有极限的，所以你的努力也将没有极限，绝不会停止。石头说：那我活的岂不是很辛苦？佛说：这么多年了，你觉得自己辛苦吗？

石头摇了摇头，又笑了。


（二）

石头问：既然这样，那么是不是要善待一下爱我的人呢？

佛摇了摇头，说：你需要你爱的人善待你吗？

石头苦笑了一下：我想我不需要。

佛说：说说你的原因。

石头说：我对爱情的要求较为苛刻，那就是我不需要这里面夹杂着同情夹杂着怜悯，我要求她是发自内心的爱我的，同情怜悯宽容和忍让虽然也是一种爱，仅管也会给人带来某种意义上的幸福，但它却是我深恶痛绝的，如果她对我的爱夹杂着这些，那么我宁愿她不要理睬我，又或者直接拒绝我的爱意，在我还来得及退出来的时候，在我还来得及退出来的时候，因为感情是只能越陷越深的，绝望远比希望来的实在一些，因为绝望的痛是一刹那的，而希望的痛则是无限期的。

佛笑了：很好，你已经说出了答案！


（三）

石头问：为什么我以前爱着一个女孩时，她在我眼中是最美丽的？而现在我爱着一个女孩，我却常常会发现长得比她漂亮的女孩呢？

佛问：你敢肯定你是真的那么爱她，在这世界上你是爱她最深的人吗？

石头毫不犹豫地说：那当然！

佛说：恭喜。你对她的爱是成熟、理智、真诚而深切的。

石头有些惊讶：哦？

佛又继续说：她不是这世间最美的，甚至在你那么爱她的时候，你都清楚地知道这个事实。但你还是那么地爱着她，因为你爱的不只是她的青春靓丽，要知道韶华易逝，红颜易老，但你对她的爱恋已经超越了这些表面的东西，也就超越了岁月。你爱的是她整个的人，主要是她的独一无二的内心。

石头忍不住说：是的，我的确很爱她的清纯善良，疼惜她的孩子气。

佛笑了笑：时间的任何考验对你的爱恋来说算不得什么。


（四）

石头问：为什么后来在一起的时候，两个人反倒没有了以前的那些激情，更多的是一种相互依赖？

佛说：那是因为你的心里已经潜移默化中将爱情转变为了亲情…

石头摸了摸脑袋：亲情？佛继续说：当爱情到了一定的程度的时候，是会在不知不觉中转变为亲情的，你会逐渐将她看作你生命中的一部分，这样你就会多了一些宽容和谅解，也只有亲情才是你从诞生伊始上天就安排好的，也是你别无选择的，所以你后来做的，只能是去适应你的亲情，无论你出生多么高贵，你都要不讲任何条件的接受他们，并且对他们负责对他们好。

石头想了想，点头说道：亲情的确是这样的。

佛笑了笑：爱是因为相互欣赏而开始的，因为心动而相恋，因为互相离不开而结婚，但更重要的一点是需要宽容、谅解、习惯和适应才会携手一生的。

石头沈默了：原来爱情也是一种宿命。


（五）

石头问：大学的时候我曾经遇到过一个女孩，那个时候我很爱她，只是她那个时候并不爱我；可是现在她又爱上了我，而我现在又似乎没有了以前的那种感觉，或者说我似乎已经不爱她了，为什么会出现这种情况呢？

佛问：你能做到让自己从今以后不再想起她吗？

石头沈思了一会：我想我不能，因为这么多年来我总是有意无意中想起她，又或者同学聚会时谈起她的消息，我都有着超乎寻常的关注；接到她的来信或者电话的时候我的心都是莫名的激动和紧张；这么多年来单身的原因也是因为一直以来都没有忘记她，又或者我在以她的标准来寻觅着我将来的女朋友；可是我现在又的确不再喜欢她了。

佛发出了长长的叹息：现在的你跟以前的你仅管外表没有什么变化，然而你的心却走过了一个长长的旅程，又或者说你为自己的爱情打上了一个现实和理智的心结。你不喜欢她也只是源于你的这个心结，心结是需要自己来化解的，要知道前世的五百次回眸才换来今生的擦肩而过，人总要有所取舍的，至于怎么取舍还是要你自己来决定，谁也帮不了你。

石头没有再说话，只是将目光静静的望向远方，原来佛也不是万能的…


（六）

石头问：在这样的一个时代，这样的一个社会里，像我这样的一个人这样辛苦地去爱一个人。是否值得呢？

佛说：你自己认为呢？石头想了想，无言以对。佛也沈默了一阵，终于他又开了口：路既然是自己选 择的，就不能怨天尤人，你只能无怨无悔。

石头长叹了一口气，石头知道他懂了，他用坚定的目光看了佛一眼，没有再说话。

guohuilist turned back time on Saturday, March 10, 2007.

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work work work. have been busy working over the past few days. install coms and servers, backing up files and all for many different hospital. have been running all over the place from changi general hospital to KK woman and children's hospital, to Singapore General Hospital and Ministry of Manpower. to sum it all. busy

ok, make it 2 words. very busy.

my schedule is hectic, reaching home at 2am plus and going back to work at 3pm. but i thought i quite enjoy the buzz. and really enjoy what i am doing. to be fair, i am working and learning at the same time. abt prioritizing, abt time management, abt working relationship. and responsibility. haha. thought i often practise these as a CI, i thought it helps me a lot when i am working nw. the experience that is.

and i really thought that working life is much more enriching that schooling. though the the freedom part isn't exactly tt welcoming.

and the ICU pathway is really creepy. esp when you are alone at night.

and the docs have a damn high volume of files in their harddrive to backup.

catched the man utd match at high on sat with zq, jas, mich and ziyan. kudos to O'shea for scoring at injury time to make our pools ticket worth their value. and to tt hongkong cafe at a very far place. ( NOT MP anymore. it's siglap ok) for dessert. the serving with the size of erm... small ?

then mahjong-ed at jas hse. ok. i kept my promised and played till i am deprived of my slptime. ok.

and practically slpt thru today, woke up for steamboat dinner and online. and nw going to slp. working tml.

till then, take care ppl.

guohuilist turned back time on Monday, March 05, 2007.

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caught jack neo's JUST FOLLOW LAW today. which i thought i enjoyed it quite a fair bit. it's very localised. depicting how things are in our current society. and more often than not, i enjoyed the mockery at our daily life thru the scenes in the movie. no matter what organisation you are working in/with in sg, may it be ur workplace, student organisation, army or sch.
a stab at our own reality it may seems. but at the same time, i was also laughing at myself. the things i do that is so similarly expressed in the movie.

and the one expression that really caught my expression and set me pondering. the part when gurmit and fann wong exchanged their souls and body via an accident. and they ended up living each other's life.

when is the last time we actually stepped into the shoes of others and realise the problem he/she is facing ? when is the last time we spare a thought for others and even ourselves ?
so how right you are and how wrong are others ?

do we really need to literally be in the body's of the others to realise how they feel and understand what they are going through ? what is this so that we cannot spare a thought for others.

that is because we all are selfish. you and i. everyone. much as i am very disappointed to say. we are all growing up in a selfish society. there is no we. only i. and it's ironic that in sch, we are learning abt teamwork and caring and sharing. but as far as i see for myself in these recent yrs, everyone is in a way selfish. i would say it's wrong. but neither will i approve of it. but tt is the reality here. do i change the world ? do i change the people ard me? or do i allow these people to change me ?

so do i learn to be more selfish ? well to some extend it will make me feel better.

i will only be happy when the people around me are happy. a common sentence isn't it ? but much would i like to witness it actualising, it is but a fairytale that dun exist before and around me. unless the only exception i can think of it paternal and maternal instinct. but even so, there are cases of parents and children fighting over assets. you be the judge for that sentence.

and abt the concept of just following the law. i somewhat beg to differ. law is but a set of system meted out so that maximum equality can be compromised to each and everyone of us. it doesn't necessary ensure fairness to everyone. there is no fairness. nor is there right or wrong. but nevertheless, we need to come up with a compromised right and wrong, fairness or unfairness that we all follow so that we all can co-existed. peacefully. or maybe we can put it that so that it's easier to govern ?

and blindly following the law. this issue is interesting. but i shall save it for other day. it's 3. gonna slp. work's in tml.

till then, cheers ppl.

guohuilist turned back time on Thursday, March 01, 2007.