Life of guohui ...chp 293

was chatting with Alif over night shift ytd abt relationships. had a pretty interesting conclusion that i thought i might wanna post up. tt's beside the pt of the grounded ferry incident we had ytd.

and as we go along, i concluded that as the yrs goes by, my expectation of that of a relationship changes. gone are the days when i actually have in mind for the perfect one, the definition of a hottie, a cute and sporty ladies that kind of fantasy. of course not to mention abt the her who got me infatuated with a third of my living age. and coming alongside( pardon the pun of the seafarer) now are actually wish list of a more realistic one than the princess in the fairytale that never seems to come by or am never within my limits. for i know i'm definitely nt a chivalrous knight in shining armour either.

and nw that reality has really or rather almost set in, my idea of a perfect companion too, are being brought down to earth. albeit someone who really appreciates and knows me for who i am, someone who i really feels at home with, and preferably someone whose trains of thought runs the same flow as i do. external visuals has definitely become a bonus than a necessity.

but of course who doesn't wish for the beauty with brains and figure to die for? if only i dun wake up from my sweet slumber of course.

and i remember once telling bowei abt how i wanna make myself perfect and give the best of myself to the her i like before actually committing myself. but the experienced one talks abt the experience of the perfection both can seek to achieve, a challenge that may prove bittersweet to both parties eventually. won't it be nice if i actually thought of these yrs ago? but given the circumstances, i believe chances are, i will still be heading on to the path i took. it was a foolish decision, but nothing can change that. if only, i supposed. things are never meant to be.

and sometime ago, i decided that the best companion for myself is actually myself, and another guohui is who i seek, the keeper of my heart. for it is me who understand myself the most. ironic. perhaps it is me who never choose to open up in the first place. or maybe no one bothers to open in the first place?

and maybe it will be my call or my excuse once again, to be keeping my options open. so what will it be? mr guohui ?

guohuilist turned back time on Sunday, August 10, 2008.