LiFe oF gUohU...cHp 209

thinking and looking back at my previous post, i seriously have spent quite a substantial amt of thing on npcc associated matters, be it on catching with people i know from npcc or unit matters. but i thought i truly enjoyed what i was doing. and the times i spend with these ppl. and it's thru these ppl and cca that i once again stressed that, i see what see the world. the many different kind of ppl that actually exist.

i was talking to jon and lam the other day. It's so amazing and interesting how npcc has come to means to many ppl, be it a cadet or an instructor. If ever we think back on the purpose of how the UG actually comes about and it's objective that is, you will be amazed to find that the true and original meaning of npcc has evolved over these years. and at that, there are a thousand and one definitions and objectives of joining or rather being involved in npcc-related activity out there. and this alone really amazes me.

but one thing is for sure. i see myself being in npcc as a passion. or to be precise, being involved in cchsm npcc. and it will NOT evolved into obsession. It will not be my life. and i'm glad i've come into contact with it. though i duno why i joined cchsm npcc in the first place. oxymoronic huh ? thinking back, it has really allowed me to meet ppl from all walks of life, and it has changed me. the guohui u meet today is certainly very different from the guohui u know ytd and definitely will not be the same tml. the way i think, the way i act and the way i see things have very much changed. though i may still appears to be the same old guohui to the same old ppl i know. esp to the 2hm cliques. but the fact is being with them is really the time i dun really show the serious side of me or even coming out to take charge. though i dun really understand why.

just like the time when the 4 of us were discussing abt how right or how wrong kira appears to be in death note. i know i have a lot to share, many pts of view to bring across, but somehow, it appears that i rather remain silent for most of the time. i'm sorry but perhaps u guys are not ready to accept the serious side of guohui. or maybe i'm nt ready to share such ideas to u all yet. it's interesting to note how i think this way, considering that we've known each other for such a long time. perhaps it boils down to the fact that we have not really worked together on something just yet. not too long ago, i had the same response with kailing and mich who even thought that i was jokingly serious.

i have no problem talking serious stuff, issues and viewpt abt life, seeking heart to heart talk with brother chee, lam and jon. in fact, i could talk for hours with lam and jon just on unit issues alone. and consult chee on the issues i had on hand.

ok. perhaps this blogging session is heading now where. just a random thought what i am feeling nw.

the only fair thing that we all have in this world is that everyone has got 24 hrs. and how we utilized this 24 hrs is all tt matters to be successful. other than that, we are starts on different playing field. --- chee siong.

and i guess somehow i hate to agree on that. and that i've lost too much time in transition already all these while. it's time to be effective. it's time to do as much as i think. and i guess tt's my resolution for this yr.

guohuilist turned back time on Monday, January 08, 2007.