LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 199
i decided that i wanted to blog this entry though i dun really know how to go abt doing it. have a couple of thoughts, plenty of actions and emotions to blog abt. but it might seems so inappropriate to blog it here, considering my position in np and maybe to some ppl ard me.
ms khairani once mentioned abt the dangerous aspect of blogs. for instance, any information about you will be available on your blog, ur routine, the places you hang out. it doesn't take a stranger much or even to know u to observe you on ur blog entries and begin his stalk on you.
tt was random but it nevertheless, it's so true and it's so scary to ponder abt the it actualizing.
anyway, i guess my life will be back on a usual low, after so many moments of highs in their various form. exciting it might seem to be, like a rollar coaster, esp after my papers last sem, but still, it's gonna end sometime and some day. and while i'll adjust back to my lows now, i still linguish the thoughts of them. life's pretty busy anyway these few days, and i welcome the buzz. lest for waking up for 8am lesson almost everyday. tt's so much of a turn-off.
was out with 2hm for dinner last friday. np meeting with lam on sat. recuperation for today. ok, it's a monday now. i mean sunday. it was zq bday today. finally 19. cheers.
and tt mum meeting my classmate issue on fri in town was pretty thought provoking.
and abt the unit updates abt cibtc.
and my final yr project
and abt my personal financial issue for this period. i thought i pretty screwed up my personal finance.
and abt karen's bday next week.
these will keep me busy for the upcomign week i supposed.
and on the thoughts on entering a uni. met a couple of neighbourhood uni friends recently, and had many a little talks with them. he was saying abt how poly students kinda lags out in a gap in uni. abt really choosing ur own path, abt decision making. actually, for a future poly grad like me, wad future beholds for me?
my fren once mentioned abt what a uni education means to us poly grad. for personal glory or for satisfying ur knowledge. while it may seems to sounds good that you are a uni grad, but financially speaking, does it really reap as much benefit? time and finance wise, a poly grad is already leaving a gap. esp for guys. while a uni grad can supposedly earn much more than a poly grad, how long do he need to recoup the "investment" sum for his uni tution fee? 5yrs? 8yrs? and after "recouping", what abt his savings for the future? marriage? kids? time is definitely not on his side.
and do i really want to stay in EEE ? though for nw, i'm gaining back my interest in the EEE field, i really do not wish to regret my choice. i dun even think that i'm suitable for a stable deskbound/lab bound career, facing electronical stuff for the rest of my life. at least for nw.
it's a choice i have to make soon.
and i realise that i'm just nt competitive anymore. the spirit of competition in me have long faded with time. and i'm too complacent in taking the backseat. don't even think that it is supposed to be a good sign anyway. i'm too easily contented by the little things in life. to appreciate simple things at it's best.
i do think i really need to find back this spirit in me. to strive for the best. i know it's within me. it was. i've been stagnant for too long. i don't even wanna go jogging or play bball anymore. i'm too used to relaxed life.
ok, maybe the jogging abd bballing part is due to the haze and companion problem.
i need to start to be active and participative.
anyway, it's getting late. and i ought to observe a healthy lifestyle by slping early. at least the effort for nw.
and tt irritating tagboard is damn irritating. it isn't working like it used to. i think i'm gonna change it soon.
it's a masterpiece of a photo taking by me at HIGH club.
they called this funny thing a graph for satallie reading. damn it. any idea how to pen this down in paper?
