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omg... i just sucks k... i duno wad's with me lately... these past few weeks have been a stupor for me... i'm so dazed abt everything and anything...

and the worst thing is i see no change in myself when the panic button is pressed...seems to take everything in my stride in which i am nt supposed to be...

esp for my studies... at this rate i am going, i dun even think i am going to pass stage 2A of my course...let alone talks of going to the uni... i can't believe tt i am sooo brain dead...

but luckily there is this bunch of whackos in class tt helps me to pace on in my studies.... and teh projects of the semester are finally bombing out... hope with their help as well as my meagre effort... it will help salvage my grades for the better... but i dun really pin much hope on this term's GPA... i do actually expect a plunge...

and for damnit sake... i sprained my ankle again... same spot... only more pain to endure... and the best thing is i fell while walking! duno wad's with me but i keep on tripping things as i walk and hurray, my ankle is sprained again and i'm out of the ball court for 2weeks or so...

lest u can count the oh-so-boliao games with the little kids, the underdog team and well... the ever-screeching st hildas girls... errmmm... netballers to be precised.... but i LOST... lol...

actually to be honest... the more ball i play these two weeks, the more i feel like a noob... a total beginner... i dun even know how to play anymore... i duno how shoot anymore...let alone reading the game...

for my games... i dun seems to be doing wad i shld anymore....

i'm just not performing the way tt i shld be in every aspects anymore...

let's hope i dun go crash my career in npcc... at least i'm nt doing something destructive...

and the problem is i shld be worried... i shld be upset and all down...

but i'm still smiling the way i was... treating and behaving as if nth has happen...

this is bad... real bad...

i am just like devolving...degenerating....and my brain is dysfunctioning...

help... someone pls do help.... chat me up... or maybe i need a psychiatrist...


loss for words...

guohuilist turned back time on Monday, August 15, 2005.