LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 108

to every uniformed group personnel, it is his/ her greatest pride and glory to participate in a parade...

especially for his/ her school...


it is even a greater honour to be the parade commander or GOH contigent commander for the school's speech day parade...

the person who choose to sacrifice himself so that others can take his role with pride is such a fool...

i am the fool...

well... self sacrifice is not all about you losing something good, but it is about passing it to someone else...

no one says it was easy... but no one told it was tt difficult...

i tot i can take it in my stride... but it was all wrong... i can't...


and i very much hate myself for tt initial decision...

y do i always try to be that mr nice guy... and ended up being so upset myself...

grrhh... this is nt the first time... but i fear it will not be the last to come...

i noe i am upset. i really am...

but turning back in time... i realise that i will still make tt decision for myself to be upset all over again...


i juz cannot stand anyone of us getting unhappy not being in the parade. or quarrel in the open or behind each other back... i will rather me being the unlucky one out...

well... i only have myself to blame, myself to be upset about, and pissed at myself

and i cannot stand it when ppl are so oblivious of other ppl feeling...

grrhhh

guohuilist turned back time on Monday, June 20, 2005.