LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 105
okie.. shall create another post today on my tots and feelings for the past few days.. it pretty seems to me tt a lot of things have been in my head man...
well... witness the passing out parade of my very own squad on sun after the camp...
well... after talking them for close to 2yrs... seeing them grow, matured, training to be followers, training to be leader, becoming a leader and leading others..
seeing them turned from a LCP to a SSGT, to SI... seeing them filling their uniform with badges... though marksman is nt a necessity... seeing them.... grow.. seeing them passed out...
tt is a real satisfying feeling... at least u noe they made it thru their 4yrs in npcc cchsm npcc style... knowing that they grow to turn out to be stronger... tougher...
and that i have done wad i have done for them... may it be silently in my heart, unknown to them... i know i have done wad i have done... they may nt appreciate it, but seeing them passing out each and every one with wonderful memories ( may it be good or bad), learnt something ( moral values, character development) in life, tt is good enuf for me.. and i wish them all the best....
okie, i noe it is embarrassing for me to "sweat" so much during their POP... maybe the first and last time i m going to...
but i assure tt those are tears of joy and satisfaction... it is nt tt i am sad to see them leave.. but am happy to see them pass out a stronger person for everyone.. way a big diff from when i took over them 2yrs ago...
and i finally understand chin yeh's similiar actions 2yrs ago for my batch...
well.. and now it is the beginning of another cycle...
still cannot believe tt the sec 1s i see 2yrs ago are NCOs as of today.. they are still... kids to me it may seems... but lets hope they will strive and excel... and may the new flames burn brighter than before
and i tink i am really getting old..
which brings me to another pt... have been serving for 2yrs, in the stint for 4yrs.. making it a 6yrs in cchsm npcc... n suddenly, i feel so tired.... but i noe i still have till 2007 to go...
it is nt tt i am sick of np or wad... but it is rather shld i let go?
okie, to be frank, the annual camp and atc dun even seems to be like exciting aniwae... but i guess it is juz another phase of life...let's hope i am nt lying to myself...
shld i even let go so tt fresh bloods can be injected in...
for now, i can count on harry and jon to carry on... they shld by now know how to take the reins...
at least i m nt like so other ppl to after staying stagnant for 2yrs, making no major contribution and r making their presense pissing ppl off...
and nt even teaching juniors things if nt showing off seniority...
i noe i might cause a up roar with the above sentence but u tink i care? if i dare to blog it, by all means, critisize me.. or even prove me wrong... which i would really appreciate...
though i dun really dare to say tt i am a very good senior to my 2 junior CIs...
well... the new batch of postings are out... with the announcement being more exciting than any other reality tv shows....
well... i hope ppl who made/set standards for them WILL be there to keep it...
dun make empty standards...
and hope they do wad they say... n nt juz say wad they wanna do...
and in the end...
okie, shall stop here... need to recuperate myself for the week... i have a serious lack of slp...
