LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 66

i meant to blog... but i duno wad to blog...


had 3 papers this week for mst... and i din even managed to study for any for all 3 papers... tink i'll scrap thru or even fail all 3 papers this time round... sian...

spent a rather meaningless v. day this yr... had PEEE paper in the morning... den went back home to change and met pris. quiting and shawn to pay salim a visit... coz CNY ma... and btw, her mum gave a SGD 88 angbao dude... kinda much for a fren's visit... after tt went for dinner... den rushed to meet a fren at nite for coffee at tampines... den chat for quite a long while before going home together... though i did received some vdae present from frens of both sexes, felt kinda blue coz din managed to spend the day with tt special someone... call me a coward, call me a fool, call me gutless, nevertheless, still couldn't bring myself to bring it up.

y did i even gave excuses like nt being able to commit? or no time to commit? aren't they simply excuses? or m i juz simply fear rejection... at least then i noe tt i've tried... but i dun even dare to... living in delusion is a sin; i'm a sinful person...


it takes courage to show; it takes courage to tell...

i juz lack tt courage...

all along i tot tt i was brave and courages...

but all along i was the biggest coward...

so wad if i'm trained to the leader of tml
so wad if i'm trained to be brave to venture out tml

i've failed in being courageous today...

all talks and no action is who i m

damn...

pls let me find my courage and find my strength...

for those readers who do not know wad is going on... treat this as the next script for a wonderful movie... disregard the content... i noe i'm messin up my entry... but this is my platform to express myself... so SHUDDAP....

i noe tt we are all so nt used to seeing guohui being so poetic ( if u called tt so )or even guohui appearing to be so vexed with his personnal side... but he is only human...

gee, i'm rude today... let me be

let me be...

guohui is feeling so blue and vexed... he dunno why and he duno how...

haiz....

guohuilist turned back time on Friday, February 18, 2005.