LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 54

yes. i noe it hasn't been 24 hrs since i last blog... but since i so damn bo liao... might as well come up with another entry. it is a cold windy night todae... n i ain't got any one to cuddle to... hhaa... tt is beside the point... me actually clean up a small portion of my room todae... it was a major project though. my study table, infested with books, np notes... lecture notes etc...


which brings me to realise one point.


* i hate to be dirty.*


which brings to realise another pt...

does too much NP involvment make me another person outside NP?

i noe i can be very dirty during np times...( n i literally mean dirty... not dirty in the mind. ) during camps... i can get myself all muddy and dirty and sweaty. i can endure not bathing for a 3 days 2 night camp, wearin the same underwear to a camp and breaking camp with the same underwear. i can dun mind the dirt when doing sai kang in the np room... with all the dust.. and dirt... i can even dun mind being in flour and water, or rolling in a mudpool... BUT i can't stand being dirty at home... or when i go out shopping. or even dirty my clothes... i would scream... yes scream, shout wad ever u call it... when i come in contact with anything dirty now.... after np times...

and another point... since i was in np, i was ever so eager to volunteer myself for everything. but now, in class, i was among the least few to volunteer for something... will always have this mentality tt i'll let others have the chance... since i always done tt for the past few yrs...so i become a slacker dude... call it others before self or just plain lazy, i have this type of mentality now... kinda bad habit k... duno y i evolve to have such mentality...


spend the evening pondering my past few months... been realising i have become more and more lazy... it is nt tt i m hardworking in the past... but now... i am a plain slacker... the way i notice my room todae... it is so damn messy... though it gives me the cozy feel, somehow this is nt wad i want it to be initially... was's with me...

guohuilist turned back time on Monday, December 06, 2004.