LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 19

hi ya to all... after being away for so long, i m finally back. hmm juz an update.. me currently working at sportslink now...besides tt , i m a full time pci...hmm yesterdae i juz receive my pay. and todae i went to make my own nets card..finally ...guess i have to even cut down my splurging now... now tt i have access to even more freedom in using my savings...hmmm todae i went to shop ard tm to sorta reward myself for my first mth pay...bought a nike basketball pants and a new basketball... after tt, i treated my fren to ajisan ramen...spent ard 30buck but quite worth it... taste quite nice lar..hmm afternoon i went back home... to try out my new ball...nt bad, got a nice touch up... afterall, it cost me a whopping 99 bucks...hmmm actually my main motive is to get to noe tiz ger tt goes by to her tution every wed...todae i miss my chance... she appears to be late fo her tution.. i was lyk really damn sad for tt but 10mins past 5pm, she walked by...i had the intention to ask for her no..since she help me to pick up my ball from far...but on second thought, i din wan to...coz i dun wan her to be late for her tution...( it was really nice of her to do so)... but aniwae, she DID smiled at me before she went off..duno whether is a kinda of a goodwill gesture or ...otherwise??? aniwae, i continued to rot at the ball court coz no frenz came down..haiz... till ard 6pm... met terance.. reminded him to call he at 6.30pm..so tt i could met tiz ger and get to noe her...but duno y her tution end so early, she juz walk by at 6.25pm..hmmm again she smiled at her...duno is goodwill gesture or wad...i juz shouted a thank you once again to her..she walked by... was i actually too chickened out to ask for her no?? i supposed so..aniwae, i DIN get her no...haiz... oh i felt my heart break... i assume tt she will walk by tiz fri or next wed... so i'll be waiting.... la la la

hmmm... now i damn stressed up for npcc...duno y my passion had slowly turned into a burden... all too suddenly, i forgot wad was my motive for being a ci... wad is a ci role aniwae in the unit? suddenly everything turn so blur for me..haiz.. tink i gotta have more initiative...

btw, do ya tink i shld skip np for once in my whole career life to go for the TP openhse tiz sat?? it will somehow affect my life... i m still ponderin whether i shld do tiz...arhz.... i m blur now.....

guohuilist turned back time on Thursday, February 12, 2004.