LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 21

hi ya... din expect myself to blog again todae..but somehow within me insisted...( ok.. do i sound the usual philosophic me??? do i sound normal???)... hmm... i din do much todae... woke up as usual... when to cchs to hand in my postin form... mr.kwek is on reservist duty and mrs kee is nt in...wad to do... left them in her pigeon hole and msg her, email her, call her lohz.... okie.... next went to play pool with zhi hui and raymond.... nt bad, had improved quite a lot... den when to buy bdae card for celine... chose a long time... haiz...duno how to give to her this sat sia.... ( her bdae btw... but got campcraft competition and she is involved...) and i duno wad to write in the card..haven bought a present yet...maybe settle for a necklace ba..... den went to mac with raymond...ate a bit... i went over to the basketball court next.... saw tt two gers again..this time i noe tt they were sec 1 and live very far from my hse...the funny thing is tt y they came to my hse the bball court of all places? n somemore stay till so late....a mystery to me...(hint: maybe becoz of me???? haha... okie... i m laming.... tt me though...muAHHAHA)

hmmm itz 14hrs to the big moment... tt is when i got my results back... how would i fare?? will i be achieving my targets??? i duno...dun seems to be able to prepare for the worst... raymond sae tt he pass he happy le... but for me... i still relish at the thought of makin it to a jc... (hear tt kiat yong is quiting....duno y...) so will i be able to realise this little insane thought of mine... it is in tml... hmmm if eva i dun do well, i dun really feel lyk attending the meetin tml nite...dun wan to go le...considerin my mood after gettin my results...duno le...will they accept my reason...okie, i may seem to be selfish... but i dun even tink i got the mood for a np meetin after gettin the result tt will affect my life loh...haiz.. c how lar tml...

hmmm i m still worrying now le...duno y.... started to feel so helpless.... so afraid of the dae before tml....started to tink back abt my life at cchs... i had a talk with zhen qiang yesterday.... both of us really admit tt we really miss cchs life... if only we could turn back in time... back to the daes of sec 2 harmony... the daes which i cherish most till todae.... the daes of xiong di dang....(gang of brother)... i noe it is but a dream but is surely my right to dream rite? how i wish... but things are neva the same any more... the lyrics of the song A whole new world keep on lignering in my mind....

like a shootin star, i've come so far... i can't go back to where i used to be.......

let's hope it will be a wonderful whole new world for me... hope tt tml neva come... all are but selfish thoughts... we c wad goes tml....life goes on... meanwhile, let me worry on......

guohuilist turned back time on Friday, February 27, 2004.

LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 20

hi ya to all..i m finally blogging again...time flies, it is soon time to get back my O lvl result. tt is due tiz fri. i have got 37 hrs exactly from now to prepare my self mentally...i had been doing tt for lyk the past few mths..still can't prepare myself for the worst( if any)... haiz...wad to do... so kan chiong now...arhz!!!! hmmm i m now officially jobless...a full time slacker who spent his dae at the basketball court from 4 pm to 9pm.... for the past few daes.. it all begun last sat...

here's an account of wad happen last sat... i was the lot i/c for pitch 2 lot 9 for the bi-annual campcraft competition... our shirt color is orange... ( wad a bright color but i m quite satisfied with the color though =9 )...was nt supposed to be the lot i/c for my unit... but somehow i did...coz i din get kelvin to swap with me... but nvm... i showed no favours to my unit... i believed in them... but hu knows wad happen to the twines at PA, my unit's twine snapped 13 times.... it was lyk OMG.. but i could do nth abt it... in the end, they din completed the tent section... leaving front guyline and 1 side guyline undone.... the boys actually cried... i was standin juz next to them... i felt so helpless... i seem so near yet so far from them.... ( i wasn't suppose to tok to them u c) haiz.... but they din swear any vulgaries when their appeal was rejected by Clinton (damn tt man... ) in an orderly manner juz as i instructed them to, they lower down their flag with pride and at attention... i was proud of them.... their eyes were full of tears... i almost cried too... but i help back my tears... well... life is lyk a race ... u win some u lose some... though i noe tt they lost, it was nt really their fault... i was proud of them... back at the lunch break, i actually turn emotionally...( tt is so unlyk me coz i usually keep my cool...) kelvin n co. came to console me... went ti drill shed to find them.. they were gone... emotionallly disturbed...

other unit oso din do as expected... only new town sec and zhong hua and a few more schools completed... VS and chinese high din make it... i was quite surprised though.. Chinese high tried to appeal but fail... ( their reason was lyk ...damn retard...) aniwae, after the competition, i was sunburnt... darker than b4... came back home play bball... won all my matches... duno whether is my venges for wad.... saww this 2 gers tt look somewhat no bigger than sec 2... i see them almost everydae... these few daes...( was it becoz of me??? haha... fast chance.... let me dream on though...) okie... me played till 2230hr tt dae... was really upset

next dae went watch nike one on one with kiat yong... den went ard taka and TM to shop for bottles and card tt kiat yong supposed to give to his new lover... he actually intended to fold stars for this ger called Kimberly... nt bad... muz meet her some other dae... haha...

mon and tue was lyk a routine to me... wake up, bball till nite time....den online...den slp...haha....lyk a perfect slacker sia...but tiz gotta end soon...either i hopefully get into a jc or get a job... la la la

guohuilist turned back time on Thursday, February 26, 2004.

LiFe oF gUohU|...cHp 19

hi ya to all... after being away for so long, i m finally back. hmm juz an update.. me currently working at sportslink now...besides tt , i m a full time pci...hmm yesterdae i juz receive my pay. and todae i went to make my own nets card..finally ...guess i have to even cut down my splurging now... now tt i have access to even more freedom in using my savings...hmmm todae i went to shop ard tm to sorta reward myself for my first mth pay...bought a nike basketball pants and a new basketball... after tt, i treated my fren to ajisan ramen...spent ard 30buck but quite worth it... taste quite nice lar..hmm afternoon i went back home... to try out my new ball...nt bad, got a nice touch up... afterall, it cost me a whopping 99 bucks...hmmm actually my main motive is to get to noe tiz ger tt goes by to her tution every wed...todae i miss my chance... she appears to be late fo her tution.. i was lyk really damn sad for tt but 10mins past 5pm, she walked by...i had the intention to ask for her no..since she help me to pick up my ball from far...but on second thought, i din wan to...coz i dun wan her to be late for her tution...( it was really nice of her to do so)... but aniwae, she DID smiled at me before she went off..duno whether is a kinda of a goodwill gesture or ...otherwise??? aniwae, i continued to rot at the ball court coz no frenz came down..haiz... till ard 6pm... met terance.. reminded him to call he at 6.30pm..so tt i could met tiz ger and get to noe her...but duno y her tution end so early, she juz walk by at 6.25pm..hmmm again she smiled at her...duno is goodwill gesture or wad...i juz shouted a thank you once again to her..she walked by... was i actually too chickened out to ask for her no?? i supposed so..aniwae, i DIN get her no...haiz... oh i felt my heart break... i assume tt she will walk by tiz fri or next wed... so i'll be waiting.... la la la

hmmm... now i damn stressed up for npcc...duno y my passion had slowly turned into a burden... all too suddenly, i forgot wad was my motive for being a ci... wad is a ci role aniwae in the unit? suddenly everything turn so blur for me..haiz.. tink i gotta have more initiative...

btw, do ya tink i shld skip np for once in my whole career life to go for the TP openhse tiz sat?? it will somehow affect my life... i m still ponderin whether i shld do tiz...arhz.... i m blur now.....

guohuilist turned back time on Thursday, February 12, 2004.